More than a year ago, I said I was going to start posting here more regularly – sharing more of my spiritual thoughts even if they weren’t as well articulated as I might like. I made it through three posts before beginning to keep most of my thoughts to myself once again. I have a habit of putting more on my to do list than I can possibly achieve… but lately I’ve been wondering if the reason I never achieve everything on the list is because I believe that I can’t. Put another way, if I start saying that I can do everything I plan to do, will I achieve more?

It can’t hurt to try… right? You might think this sounds simple – that if I plan things out more specifically and stick to a schedule, I can’t fail. Yet, there is only one rabbit hole that can suck up more of my time than silly memes on social media: my to do list. I used to spend a lot more time trying to figure out how to get everything done… and I used up so much of my time planning what I was going to get done each week that I got barely anything done. New ideas always arose that required constant alterations to my schedule.

Last year I started keeping a journal of business ideas and plans instead. It is essentially a giant to do list, but it feels less daunting because I don’t do deadlines. Sometimes I write down the date the idea came to mind and write down a plan that I believe will take a certain number of hours, days, or weeks. I always go back and record the date when I finally brought that idea to fruition. Last year, using this new method, I wrote an e-course on fortune telling with playing cards, published three books (journals) on Amazon, finished designing the AWEsome Intuition Deck, re-launched my vlog, created a survey to determine the effectiveness of tarot, painted, sold, and gave away hundreds of Fortune Telling Tiny Art Playing Cards to invite people to take my survey and contribute to the research, started drawing a series of Kings and Queens… and some other stuff… all while working full-time. I even found some time to have fun.

I’ve also been studying religion and spirituality a lot – listening to audio books and watching documentaries. I’ve started to write many posts, but not found the time to finish them and, in the end, kept all those thoughts to myself… and didn’t give you the chance to get to know why I do the things I do… even though I know how strange it must sound when I say that I believe poker can help show whether or not there are signs in the cards. So, even though I’m currently behind on posting videos to my new vlog (and a few other things), I want to state here and now that I am done dreaming about what I’m going to achieve someday and working on believing I can have all I want right now.

I’m already over the amount of time I pledged to write today, so I’ll leave you with the deep thought that led to the title of this post and a change in attitude. It happened the day I listened to Miracles by C.S. Lewis (free on Audible). As he explains in a philosophical manner throughout the book, miracles are, by definition, out of the ordinary. They are inexplicable. The fact that I see signs in the cards might be provable through the methods I’m using… or it could prove that there aren’t signs in the cards… but there are other possibilities. What if interpreting the cards in the way I’m trying to do in order to win a prestigious poker tournament would require a miracle. Any combination of these things could be true, and none means that this journey isn’t my fated spiritual path.

Thinking about the future in this way was freeing for me. I knew I needed to take my ego out of the equation, and it felt as if it spontaneously dropped into the abyss. It reminded me of the importance of now and being the person that I want to be.

Winning a prestigious poker tournament is not the ultimate goal of my journey. Of course, I would love to win the WSOP Main Event, but it’s not about the money or the poker, it’s about what that type of win would mean. No woman has ever achieved that goal and I’m trying to do it using unorthodox intuitive methods I feel spiritually called to use. Also, I studied Sociology in college to be a social worker and help people. Earning enough to be a generous philanthropist is something I would enjoy more than poker. I told you more about my poker dreams over the past year, but I never divulged any of the thoughts I had while listening to a bit more than half of this “one year” Bible, an overview of the major world religions, an eye-opening book about consciousness, a dialogue about the physics of angels, and much more.

That’s going to change. Some posts may be short, sweet, and philosophical, but my goal for 2024 is to share more by repeatedly reminding myself that I can. Of course, if you want to pray for my journey, send love and luck, press the like button, and/or leave a comment… that is all greatly appreciated too. Either way, if you read all this way, I am grateful for you and hope you have a wonderful day!